I don't know where to start my story from..I want people to learn from me and advise
me.
I started dating this guy since my university days, I thought I was in love, the sex was great, tho I went through a lot of drama( always having argument about girls texting, him calling them) I was always doing my best to ensure that he had no time for other girls, I was practically living for him I felt he was the one, I never gave any other guy chance, I had my first and only abortion for him .
We went for NYSC in 2011 I served in d north while he served in southwest,I ensure I visited like once in 3 months but he never for once visited me. Things took turn in late 2012, when I just having feelings for him, even when we have sex I just lie and pray he finishes on time I badly wanted it to work out ,I tired but it seemed like I was trying to wake the dead he was the only close to serious relationship I've had., there was a time I saw a chat of him telling his friend that he will be lodging a girl because we stopped having sex ,I confronted him but he denied it saying its just chat, I realised I wasnt angry or hurt (just emotionally drained, dont feel hurt or love for him again).
I told him I wanted to breakup but he begged and convinced me to stay, i unhappily went ahead wt the relationship. My breaking point was when I read about the sore I have intermittently in my private part and learnt I have Herpes..I have herpes wow!!
I confronted him and he confessed he contracted it from a girl during service. . I decided to end the relationship officially last year may, I got a good job in February and realised I needed to move on , I needed to leave the loveless relationship. That was when I saw the soft side of him, he begged me to stay, he changed from all his bad ways, he obviously did.
But for me it was too late, I feel nothing again but I can no longer stay out of pity, he has a job too, but sometimes I still give him money even after we broke up, its funny how things turn around, I remember in school when we argue he'd tell me to shut up that I shouldnt be talking back at him afterall he gives me money. Relationship of 4yrs gone like dat...then d story started, people said I dumped him after getting a job, my family begged me continue with the relationship that the "the devil I know is better than the angel I dont know",
I was hurt that my family didnt support me after telling them them he whole story,they are just so bent on me getting married, I stopped confiding in them too. My family isnt making matters easy for me they even called him this morning. I have forgiven him for everything, I tried to make it work again but it didn't.
I am 26 years old, i have genital herpes, I choose to live a happy life, havent been in a relationship since I broke up with him, after a long time I have learnt to start enjoying my life without a man. I have gotten closer to God , I have chosen to become celibate till after marriage, though I get scared if guys know I have herpes they'll run not to talk of marying me lol(I can choose not to mention it right?) But no! I will say the truth, I still believe in love, though I have guys asking me out but am scared of dating again and scared they will run after learning about the herpes. But I know God knows the best plan for my life and I am trusting him. Please I am so sorry for the incoherent message. Please be nice with your comments.
me.
I started dating this guy since my university days, I thought I was in love, the sex was great, tho I went through a lot of drama( always having argument about girls texting, him calling them) I was always doing my best to ensure that he had no time for other girls, I was practically living for him I felt he was the one, I never gave any other guy chance, I had my first and only abortion for him .
We went for NYSC in 2011 I served in d north while he served in southwest,I ensure I visited like once in 3 months but he never for once visited me. Things took turn in late 2012, when I just having feelings for him, even when we have sex I just lie and pray he finishes on time I badly wanted it to work out ,I tired but it seemed like I was trying to wake the dead he was the only close to serious relationship I've had., there was a time I saw a chat of him telling his friend that he will be lodging a girl because we stopped having sex ,I confronted him but he denied it saying its just chat, I realised I wasnt angry or hurt (just emotionally drained, dont feel hurt or love for him again).
I told him I wanted to breakup but he begged and convinced me to stay, i unhappily went ahead wt the relationship. My breaking point was when I read about the sore I have intermittently in my private part and learnt I have Herpes..I have herpes wow!!
I confronted him and he confessed he contracted it from a girl during service. . I decided to end the relationship officially last year may, I got a good job in February and realised I needed to move on , I needed to leave the loveless relationship. That was when I saw the soft side of him, he begged me to stay, he changed from all his bad ways, he obviously did.
But for me it was too late, I feel nothing again but I can no longer stay out of pity, he has a job too, but sometimes I still give him money even after we broke up, its funny how things turn around, I remember in school when we argue he'd tell me to shut up that I shouldnt be talking back at him afterall he gives me money. Relationship of 4yrs gone like dat...then d story started, people said I dumped him after getting a job, my family begged me continue with the relationship that the "the devil I know is better than the angel I dont know",
I was hurt that my family didnt support me after telling them them he whole story,they are just so bent on me getting married, I stopped confiding in them too. My family isnt making matters easy for me they even called him this morning. I have forgiven him for everything, I tried to make it work again but it didn't.
I am 26 years old, i have genital herpes, I choose to live a happy life, havent been in a relationship since I broke up with him, after a long time I have learnt to start enjoying my life without a man. I have gotten closer to God , I have chosen to become celibate till after marriage, though I get scared if guys know I have herpes they'll run not to talk of marying me lol(I can choose not to mention it right?) But no! I will say the truth, I still believe in love, though I have guys asking me out but am scared of dating again and scared they will run after learning about the herpes. But I know God knows the best plan for my life and I am trusting him. Please I am so sorry for the incoherent message. Please be nice with your comments.
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